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Idk anymore.
I hate the fact that I have to hate coming home.
There are parts of songs that I feel are totally me.
I hope my life can turn into happy/love songs.
Instead of the emo songs -.-

I broke my phone.
Lakers lost.
History project almost killed me.
TSS -.-

My clothes came.
The TV was fixed. (shouldn't have broke in the first place!)
Strawberries + condensed milk = my current happiness.

IDK.

I really do hope for success.
I know it takes more determination.
I don't possess this determination.
I hope for better grades.
I hope for better relationships.
I hope for a better guard (in skill and emotions).
I hope for more money (individually, AND for the world).

My day went from BAD to okay to good to okay-good.
Stupid stuff in the morning, tiring practice, good pep talk, and came home to new underwear(:
Homework now -.-
Math test Friday >:O
Spanish and History projects due!
I hate projects. Too time-consuming. Not worth it.

Why?!

Why is apple day being generous to me?
I was doing fine with the 'things are lookin up' thing.
The CAHSEE with lynn was pretty fun yet boring.
I ate a lot of food.
Then in an instant things go from smiley to sobbing.
And it continues.
for hours
and hours.
:'(
I hate this feeling.
I love you guys who keep me sane, well.. kinda.

Things are lookin' up?

I just feel happy. ;)
Though there are still downsides to things.
I was bored yesterday :(
It's so lonely at home!
I've had really unusual sleeping patterns.
So today, I woke up.
Ate, watched TV, knitted.
I started reading for Eng really early!
Surprised? Me too.
I watched the first half of the Lakers game :(
Went to the mall during half time.
W/ Jennifer Ha!
I just wanted to go to get my free underwear!
It ended up not working >:O
But I got a shirt at AE with my 2 year old giftcard :) -ty raymond
A shirt at Old Navy w/ my 30% off :)
And a shirt at Aero w/ giftcard -ty nhantran
FOOOD too <3
And some pretty scrunchies.
24 for $1.50! How could I resist?
I'm home now, and have to do homework.
I realized that a month ago, I was looking forward to the 'future'
I guess I'm satisfied with this present.
But I'm scared of the future...

EDIT I spoke too soon. Apple Day made things feel impossible :(

Thanks.

Seriously. I fcken love you guys.
You're awesome!
Backwards day was eh.
I was sick >:O
I feel bad cause we didn't film.
I was hungry.
Mrs. Washington wouldn't share!
Spanish is boring now.
I'm a loner :(
Yogurt, food and bobby pins :)
Practice was okay.
Helped with Backwards.
Manana, tenemos uno competencia.
Y hay uno DANCO en el gimnasio.
Goodluck :D

I'm so sick.

And it happened so quick.
Looking at old flicks.
Trying to figure out
Where we went wrong.
-NeYo.

Ugh, I'm sick again -.- and still annoyed at some aspects of my life.
I set up my vaporizer in my room.
I'm tired.
I am going to sleep.
I'm not sure if I have homework.
Tomorrow is Backwards Day.
Saturday is Backwards/Huntington Beach for us.

I really pray for a good job on Saturday.
Better life overall! :( ;) 8]
^in all parts of life. <3

If no one truly cared,

I wouldn't be here right now.
Thanks for making it worth it.
Through my nervous breakdown.
I pray that things will go my way.
And I really want the best for life.
M'loves<3