To be honest, I don't even know who to address this to. Throughout my high school years, I feel like I've just stuck to the easy label, which is the one that existed since forever. But then I realized that I'd personally like to make this title really flexible. So I guess instead of this letter being just towards one person, I'll also write a more generalized part.
So, I guess we've drifted. I guess it's kinda sad. Every time I watch TV or read about those 'best friends' that can complete each other's sentences and know exactly what they're talking about, I miss that we almost had that back then. I guess high school just showed us that things change. I really do miss you, but I feel like it's awkward if we try to have a 'best friend' moment. When we talk (which is rarely), I feel like we just feel like we have to tell each other. I know we've both had time where we feel like we needed someone to talk to, but I guess we've just found other people. So I guess this letter's just to say, I definitely miss you, but I don't think things can ever be the same. Thanks for all the things you've done for me, and just know that I'll always be here as your friend. Know that there are still pictures in my room of us, that say "#1 friends". Though that number has probably changed, you are still my friend. We've gone through so much throughout the years, and I guess it's been a fun run. I guess that chapter in our lives has ended. And now, in our books of our lives, we are simply subordinate characters, rather than co-protagonists.
For the rest of you that I may have considered a 'best friend' in the past few years, I'd like to say thanks for all the laughs, tears, and food shared together. Through the mystery, I questioned what a best friend was. Is it someone that's just a 'close friend'? Is it someone that you can trust with anything? Is it someone that can always cheer you up? Because for me, I had friends that couldn't do it ALL, but some. There are certain people that I feel like I can't tell certain stuff, but I definitely loved spending time with you. There are certain people that can't really make me laugh, but put a smile on my face with how sweet they are. I used to think that a best friend was someone that's been there forever, like in those movies where the BFFs graduate high school and reminisce about their kindergarten days. In reality, that doesn't happen. I guess someone just comes across in your life, and if you end up getting along, your relationship grows from there. Then if something happens, that tests whether you can reconcile your differences, or just stay separate. I feel like I'm getting old, and this concept of a 'best friend' will continue through college, work, motherhood and eventually, retirement.
Sincerely,
me.
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