Let me tell you something, I'm glad that I think of you this way so that every time I see that sappy tumblr stuff, I have someone in mind. It's too bad that you make me so angry sometimes. Being me, I just like to admire from afar. Though we talk, I know that's all it'll ever be. I've come so close to giving up, but you're just so darn cute! You make me smile, though you don't know it. (Excuse this super 'gay' stuff, but it's all I can honestly write in this letter.) I guess it's not like my other crushes on other boys. I feel like, it's different. Like more of an indie movie crush, versus a Disney movie crush. For me, 'getting over it' won't be too hard, or so I think. This has been a crush for at least 4 months now, and I would think I'm getting tired of it, but I'm not. Knowing that I still see you around, makes me think that this crush will continue. I feel like I want to see/hear that you are with someone else, so I can just get over it. But I know that deep in my heart, I like what we have (even if it's one-sided). The thing is, I know I'm probably not the only girl that's admiring you. I'm used to that, though. I'm used to never being chosen first, by anyone. But I guess it's made me stronger. S4L! I guess it'll feel nice to have someone that'd pick me first, and that I'd do the same exact thing. But it also makes me feel good to have my friends tell me that they admire me for being independent. So, I guess I'll let this crush on you, either stay or blow over, doesn't really matter for me. Getting over it on my own would be less painful, but if I was forced to get over it, that's fine too. I haven't written about the possibility of something happening because I either feel like there's no chance that anything will, or I don't want to jinx it. Obviously, in any crush, you imagine what it's like to be a couple, and I know that I do that. But I don't even know where I am in this. I don't know if I'm forcing myself to get over it, or honestly taking a little break in this mini-obsession. So, continue as you please. If you find me interesting, tell me. If not, that's fine and I hope we can continue being the 'friends' that we are.
Sincerely,
me.
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